Just lemme pass the damn piss test already
Written on November 4th, 2024 by Anthony Ponce
I got some nice clothes from work the other day. Felt nice to look nice.
An Air Force representative called me on Halloween night at 9:30 to give me some preliminary questions and I was just happy to finally have them on the phone. I was already drinking but the interview was pretty standard stuff.
They asked me about any illegal drug use or whatever and I just told them I smoked pot a few times in my early twenties. Don’t gotta expand on that shit further if you ask me.
I keep wanting to follow this girl I have been stuck on for a long time now but I haven’t gotten the courage to do so. Slept with her one time last year in December. She went off to the fucking Army and for all I know I am just a distant memory at this point.
I lost my motivation to carry on with my goals of enlisting shortly after since I felt like she stole my whole fucking flow bar for bar.
Military was supposed to be a ME thing lmao.
How fucking lame I know I would’ve already been in or out of tech school by this point but here I am still in fucking school.
I mean don’t get me wrong I got some decent shit going on and all that but I feel like I fell behind when i could’ve already been where I want to be.
Over the course of this year I managed to lose some friends. Lot of them really. At this age you don’t get many new ones these days.
I don’t wish ill will onto any of my former friends. The opposite really. I want them to strive and find all the joy they wwant out of life irregardless of I am in it.
26 years old.
I keep thinking about how when I was 16 I would’ve probably told you I want to be on my own at this point and how I feel like I would be a few years into my career.
Instead I’m at J. Crew pushing clothes part time. Flirting with the military.
To be fair to myself I did get that AS like I told myself I would by this point. I would say I at least want to go for my two years and shit.
There is a thing I remember vividly saying about if I don’t get it together by this point fuck it I am just gonna enlist.
Enlist.
A1C Ponce.
Sounds good to me I think.
